I woke up early, too early (again) I love my sleep, but for some reason, I woke at 4 ish and thought and thought and before I knew it the alarm went off and I pulled open the curtains and it seemed such a lovely day.
First thing our mornings are busy , but now I take time to appreciate this rush, my children will not be children forever....soon as nursery was, this time will be over, lots of deep breaths and patience is all that is needed....I can do that!
I put little man in his taxi and learnt one of the little one's dad died suddenly yesterday. (Sunday) Instantly my heart was heavy because I knew my friend had "lost" her husband. Like us she has two autistic kids, the dad was only 50 and well I felt so deeply saddened . Last month we shared a lovely afternoon at their house . A small group of parents and kids (most of the kids have ASD ) the kids were due to start the new unit with her son and my Little Miss in September and now this ........... I rang . My friend's sister in law answered , said my friend could not talk, ....oh the rawness and I just said "I'm sorry, if, when , you need anything , we will be here" but words seem like leaves blowing in the wind at times like this ..don't they! So hard to find the right words .....I had a list of things to do this week , but when things like this happen so suddenly and unexpectedly , well lists seem rather less important .. my heart and head just felt numb.........DH told me to go for a walk ........I needed some fresh air .... I did....
I wandered down the lane and saw this beautiful horse across a field
and
everything
seemed so still
Our lane full of fallen
leaves
I don't see a single vehicle
the quietness
was so ...peaceful
The cows and calves have returned to
the field
next to us
many more calves have been born
In recent months
A reminder that life just goes on.
That thought cleared the fog from
my mind a bit
Life going on as usual
but different
All week I have just wanted
to be at home
...my favourite place ...
During the week
Little Miss told me they have been going
On lovely country walks in school and have a nature project
table now at school...
So wanting a distraction and with her
project in mind
I looked on the net a bit
and decided to do a bit of making.
As you know I have a bit of a stash of fabric , so in peace and quiet I sat in the annex, and picked out some fabric and felt.
I thought a lot in between , maybe too much.....
And in between doing the this and that Of every day life, I have.made lots of these and still have more to make .
This a biggy!!
I have never made pumpkins before and they have been so relaxing to hand sew ( I adore my sewing machine but I find hand sewing so enjoyable.). .... .not too much concentrating on , letting me use up lots of fabric that I love and big smiles from the children when I show them my efforts after school. . I have played with the embroidery stitches on "Dolly" (my sewing machine) ..
.I have walked the lanes , walked through crunchy leaves in my wellies, bumped into "neighbours" . I have seen farmers getting the ewes ready for tupping (mating) and thought of the new lambs that will be everywhere is this county I now call "home" come the spring. The weather has turned rather chilly... Woolly wellie socks , hats, scarves and gloves have now had a freshen up wash. I am ready for the cold weather when it rolls in.
This weekend I hope Little Miss will join me in making some more pumpkins... Her little fingers haven't got great grip... so we will take our time ..... no matter what we will have fun ...she has such a sense of fun , just what I need after a week like this. I look back when I was a teenager and how my mother 's eyes would roll at my antics and wickedness!!! I am sure my sweetheart is my payback, she looks at me and at times it is like looking at my mother I swear!!!! I asked little man would he like to make some pumpkins and his reply made me laugh " I'm not at school..no thanks!!'"
Autumn have arrived here in more ways than one for sure...
See you soon, hopefully only happy, creative or fun things to post next time.
. Xxx
